Wow, I am in desperate need of an update. It's been so long that I keep putting it off even more. I don't even know where to start. Obviously my last post wasn't too informative, so my last actual post was May 14th. So I guess I'll start from there.
Workin' It: So our new director at work lasted all about 3 weeks. Syanora! I had been filling in as Acting Director since then. My RVP started giving me more and more responsibilities, a new phone, etc and as of July 1st I got a promotion to Program Director. Both exciting and scary at the same time. It's a lot of responsibility, but I feel so lucky to have moved up so fast. Oh yeah, and it's more money! =>
We are family: Dad is an official California resident. He lived with us for about a month, but got his own place about 2 weeks ago. Been spending a lot of time with him, helping him get his place together, buy a computer. Since he's been here the fam's gone to Six Flags!!!, LA Zoo, Los Feliz street festival...fun times.
Ash just left for Europe yesterday. My sister, the jetsetter...Mexico, Europe. She'll be gone 3 1/2 weeks. I still cannot believe she is backpacking around Europe. Crazy.
My mom has been sober for the past 2 1/2 weeks. Very proud of her. It's all come from the fact that she's having problems with her liver really, but I'll take what I can get. I'm not gonna say I'm not skeptical about her staying sober because we've been down this road so many times before, but I have to be optimistic. It would be great to spend some time with her sober when I come home. I'm gonna keep hoping for that.
Be my friend: Tawny is here!!! Yeah! It's so nice to have her here. We've gone to the beach, done some shopping, saw SATC, karaoking, lunching, dinnering...nice. It had been so long since we had hung out really, like high school, so it's kinda like we're building our friendship back up. I feel like a slacker because I barely ever call to hang out though. It's really pure laziness. When I get off work I just feel like going home and doing nothing.
SF Outside Lands: In August Larry, Ash, George,and me are flying to San Fran for the Outside Lands music fest in Golden Gate Park. I am so stoked!! It'll be my first time in San Francisco and my first music fest. Jack Johnson, Tom Petty, Ben Harper, Regina Spektor, Beck, Radiohead, etc etc. Cannot wait!!!
It's def looking to be a good summer. Turtles/Badfinger/Animals concert, home visit in three weeks, Outside Lands.....and whatever else comes my way. I will try, try, try to be a better updater just in case there is actually anyone who reads this.
xoxo
Oh yeah and I actually read a book in June. Really good.
The Omnivore's Dilemma: A Natural History of Four Meals
Michael Pollan
Non-Fiction, History, Nutrition, Anthropology
464 pages
Published 2007
Michael Pollan acts as detective, tracking down the exact origins of four different meals. He takes us through industrial, organic, ethical, and personal approaches to food. Along the way, he compares the size of the carbon footprint and ethical implications of each approach. This book was a bestselling title in 2007.
To me this book was okay. I appreciated the in-depth view of the current standard American diet. The poor grammar was a little distracting. The first part seemed to go on a bit too long about corn. I was tempted to scrap the whole thing but instead I skipped some corn sections and found most of the rest of the book interesting. I especially enjoyed the section on Polyface Farm where Joe Salatin is a profoundly successful farmer producing delicious food by letting each form of life on the farm fully express itself.
It is possible that this book will be the "Diet For a Small Planet" of the new millennium.
What odd things dreams are when we have them. We experience quite allot of things during REM (rapid eye movement). How such complexities arise; we are shown that brain wave activity is just a little bit higher during REM. Why do we have dreams? Well there is a large proportion of scientific matter on the subject and though I find such things interesting I shall not speak much about them so I may not retard my reader's interests. Though one line of thought is that dreams have a therapeutic quality towards them. If so then I may need a lot of therapy :)
I cannot say how lucid my dreams are but I suspect them more lucid than others. I can remember certain time intervals such as a week or a year within my dreams. When I awake the entirety of my dream time compacts into basic flashes. Much like a different time as described in Mark Twain's novels "3000 years amongst the microbes" and "Letters from the Earth". One of my greatest curiosities is my ability to notice a different kind of history.
When I am there in the dream at a certain place or with a certain person that I know or am familiar with, I can tell you the entirety of what I know of the history of that place, person, or thing, (noun) and of its past, of days prior that is of my present memory, for I often dwell on such things while dreaming. This also leads to another curiosity that I have, why is it that I can daydream or postulate about such things while dreaming. I wonder if this is adding even more of a thought process in my brain and makes me worry that I may be thinking more while I dream then when I am awake.
Though as one reads this passage you may have bob on a question or two you wish to ask. "Does this person realize he is dreaming while he is in the process or does his dreams seem so ordinary as if everyday real life that he cannot are hardly ever does? I can assure that 1: there have been times that I have notice that I was dreaming but not often and 2: that my dreams can be far than extraordinary if not quite bizarre. As are the people that I meet and indeed they seem very real I may argue even more so then some I have met awake.
I can say that I have long conversations with certain people very interesting but not those famous from the past. And I have fun though not wild adventures on occasions. One of my latest exploits was having a very fond love affair with a certain person I only know in my dreams though sadly not yet in reality if there is such a person. It lasted for what I recall a year but there is one week during and prior to the my meeting with this person that hangs vividly in my head. There is also one more characteristic that I remember well, a middle aged business woman that often criticized and praised my relationship.
Indeed I am quite fond of these experiences but there have been some of the most dreadful kind. One such instance has been so devastatingly terrible that the entire memory has been blanked out of my mind. I awoke from this dream with tears in my eyes and heavy lump of lead and iron where my heart should have been. I had no knowledge of what had conspired, I had only the deep sense of losing someone dear to me. Not to the bed loom of death but just becoming completely unreachable that it may have well been if not worse of a distance between us.
It has caused such a huge impression on me that it still haunts me to this day even after six years. From time to time when I am in a small and secluded place where no one can hear me I will scream agonizingly. In my minds eye I am alone with no one recognizing me. It reminds me of quantum theory. Where an atom is in a state of existence only when it is recognized. Thus I find it hard at times to affirm my own existence even amongst a large amount of people or socializing with friends.
I say this not to acquire your pity but to conduct the memoirs of these unreal people that I know. For though they may not be confiscated by death they live quite abundantly in men if not me.
Linda como una flor de amapola
como una trenza de olas del mar
asi eres tu mi reina
te voy amar
dejame hacerte en el pecho un nido
para que aprietes mi corazon
ya reserve la noche para tu amor
para estrujarnos los dos
cuerpo a cuerpo mujer
rondando un beso
para preñarte de luz
como un rayo de sol
Ay vivire
vivire cada segundo pegadito de ella
como medallita al cuello
con el corazon en fiesta
vivire
Vivire cada segundo enamorado de ella
como bolero en la noche
que se esconde en las estrellas
agua que cae por la madrugada
arropanos al amanecer
moja la pausa
y luego dejanos ser
nos sentaremos sobre la hierba
preguntaras y preguntare
y llegara otra noche q reserve
para estrujarnos los dos
cuerpo a cuerpo mujer
rondando en un beso
para preñarte de luz
con un rayo de sol
Ay vivira
vivire cada segundo pegadito de ella
como medallita el cuello
con el corazon de fiesta
vivire
vivire cada segundo enamorado de ella
como bolero en la noche
que se esconde en las estrellas
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Is that an oxymoron?
Appropriate for all ages, although there are a couple of violent scenes. But only a couple.
The lovely and talented Bai Ling is given an opportunity to act.....
Totally Terrible Tuesday Things
- The server at work fried over the weekend because people can't leave the thermostat alone. Hello people?!?!?! wear a sweater if you are cold and don't wear short shorts and spaghetti straps to the office. Leave the thermostat alone!!
- The server at work was fixed yesterday but is down again today. Have I mentioned that I depend on e-mail for a large part of my job?
- I have a vent about my side of the family---and don't have time to write it out. I don't understand how I came from such a redneck bunch!
- Paul still lives at home with his folks
- Hot, I hate hot
- OC and the feral kitties got into a fight and I haven't seen the feral kitties since (yes, plural, there were two)
Totally Terrific Tuesday Things
- One of my VOX peeps asked me to flesh out a post that I made answering a QotD and submit it to a magazine to see if the editors will publish it. (Now if I can only find time to actually work on that...)
- Going to Tupelo for the week to see my sister-in-law, her husband and the girls while they are down from Boston! YaY!!
- Paul has a job and won't be home all day every day.
- Going to the park for the Fourth of July fireworks---maybe even leaving early enough to hear some of the live bands/music that will be playing.
- Already picked two gallons of blueberries and there are many many more to be picked.
- Finishing a long term project and starting another.
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